This isn’t my first weight loss rodeo.
No, seriously, I have blog post from years past to prove it.
Weight has always been my struggle, and even now as I sit on my porch writing this I feel apprehensive about sharing something so personal again. I mean, by the time you hit 29 you’ve pretty much given up on ever being the person you wanted to be in your head. Diets make you miserable, and even if they work it’s hard to maintain.
Especially when life comes at you.
Last year I lost 20lbs and I was so proud of myself. People noticed, I went down a size, and I thought that this was finally it. I was finally going to succeed.
And then my mamaw got sick the week of my brother’s wedding and everything went to crap.
Honestly, life from July 2017 to December 2017 is a blur. In September of that year she was admitted to this hospital and three days later admitted to skilled nursing at the local nursing home. Two months later she had a series of strokes that made her immobile and they admitted her into the nursing home.
Two days later she passed away.
My whole family was there and watching someone you love take their last breath is something I’ll never forget, and it changed my very being. I stumbled around in a fog until a month ago when it seemed to lift and by chance I signed up for Weight Watchers.
I know, I know, how can you sign up by chance? Well, they were having this deal where your first month was free if you signed up for 6 months and something in me told me to take the chance. Of course, about an hour later I was like, what in the fresh heck have I done?
I spent the next week planning on how exactly I was going to change my whole way of eating, when that’s not what I originally intended to do. The voice in my head told me it was a waste of time and money, that it would never work, and that I’d fail like I always did.
But I started.
Two and a half weeks later I’m down about 8lbs and while it hasn’t been easy, it’s somehow just sorta clicked in place. My clothes already fit better and I can actually see myself making this work.
I guess this is my journey, let’s see where it takes me.