Dear Girl Who Only Posts Pictures of Her Face 

Dear Girl, 

I get you. For years I didn’t post or even take full body pics. I felt like my face was way better than the rest of me and if I showed the world what I looked like no one would want to pay attention to me. 

I see people who have so many pictures from high school and how they lovingly look back on them. I, however, have very few pictures from that period of my life. 

Don’t get me wrong, I have a few, but I spent that time avoiding the camera from the chest down. 

Why do we do it?

We are trained to think that unless you look a certain way, you aren’t attractive. We see pictures like this splashed all over the internet and magazines and we think this is the norm. 


Or maybe we feel that our chest is too big. Maybe it’s too small. Maybe we think we look too thin and are afraid people will make fun of us. Maybe we hate our stomach. 

There’s a million reasons we don’t like our body and I couldn’t even begin to name them all. We also forget that it’s not just curvy girls that feel self conscious. 

All women feel that way; big or small, tall or short. 

But that’s the thing – if we all feel that way at some point, then why can’t we just be accepting of each other? 

Your body does not define you. Your skin color does not define you. Your clothes do not define you. Your hair does not define you. 

You define who you are. 

Take control of who you are and go on a journey of learning to love yourself. Take those pictures. Post those pictures. Life does not wait for you to decide you’re good enough, so live each day. Enjoy your friends and family. Wear that bathing suit to the beach. Wear the leggings. 

Don’t hide everything but your face. Be proud and unapologetically so. 

Tarte’s Works of Tarte Set *first impression*

Oh, the Holiday palettes are here again! So many to choose from and only so much money 😫 So how do you choose? By reviews, of course!

Today I bring you my first First Impression Thursday! I’ve reviewed the new Tarte Holiday 2016 Set that’s available at ulta.com 

Click here to see product at ulta.com

I’m trying something new and making a video instead of a blog post 😱 Click here for the YouTube video!

Let me know what you think and leave me some love ❤️

It’s November!

Happy November 1st, y’all! It’s officially the holiday season and we’re even playing Christmas music at work (yes, we’re those people)! 

This month is about thankfulness, and I want to take the time each day to post something I’m thankful for. I want to focus more on the less generic things, so today I’m thankful for running water. 

It’s an easy thing to take for granted, but there are people who don’t have running water, and some that do don’t have dependable running water. 

It’s so easy for us to turn the water on to take a bath or wash dishes, but to others it’s a luxury they’ll never experience. 

What are you thankful for today? 

October Favorites! 🎃

October has been a great month! Fall is officially here, the weather is turning colder, and Christmas is just around the corner! 

  • To start off this favorites blog I have to tell y’all about the perfume that I’m obsessed with – YSL Black Opium. I received a sample of it and was completely hooked, so I had to buy the big bottle. It has this really womanly scent, but a hint of something almost smoky. If you’re close to an ULTA or Sephora then you NEED to go and smell it. 


Click here to check it out at Ulta

  • Following perfume we may as well stick with beauty, so my next favorite is Anastasia Beverly Hills lip gloss in Fudge. Man oh man, is this gloss pigmented! I just use a lip liner underneath and apply the gloss and go! It doesn’t spill outside of the lip line and it’s so comfortable to wear! It’s an amazing color for fall. 


Click here to see this gloss at Sephora

  • Transitioning from beauty to candles, my next favorite is the Mahogany Apple candle at Bath and Body. If you’ve ever smelled the Mahogany Teakwood candle (thank you Jaclyn Hill!) then just imagine that mixed with the scent of apples. Amazing! 


After writing this I realized that it was no longer on the Bath and Body website 😱 Im not sure if it’s only available in stores. So sorry!

  • I couldn’t have an October favorites without mentioning the purse I’ve been carrying! In the fall and winter (or any time, really) I love cross body bags because I find them easier to carry with all my extra layers. This one has an adjustable strap and the perfect amount of room. The design is just so pretty and in right now, as well!


Click here to see this bag

  • Next is a clothing item! I’ve recently been really in to Ralph Lauren shirts and I’ve gotten so much use out of this one! It’s long enough for me to comfortably wear it with yoga pants, but isn’t too long that it looks frumpy. It’s a loose fit and lightweight. A big plus is that’s it’s part of their Pink Pony collection which donates money to cancer charities. 


Click here to see this shirt at ralphlauren.com

  • Last, but certainly not least, is my first ever pair of Lularoe leggings. If you haven’t heard of them before, go to facebook and type lularoe into the search bar. You’ll find tons of online shops and while you wait to be accepted into the group, google lularoe and see what they’re all about! I have bought six pairs in the last three weeks 😱 I’ve thought about doing a review of the brand, so if that’s something you’d be interested in let me know! These are so comfy and cute and I love that they have zombies all over them! 


Click here to go to the lularoe website

And there we have it! These are the items that I have been loving in the month of October. What are your October favorites? Let me know! ❤️

Eating Disorders, Anxiety, and Depression. My story of overcoming mental illness and gaining true happiness. 

This is my life journey. I haven’t sugarcoated my story. As the title states, this deals with mental illness. Please read with caution. 

Weight has been something I’ve struggled with my entire life. 

I can remember being in the fourth grade and comparing weight with my friends and realizing that I weight at least ten more pounds than they did. 

I remember my mom calling the plus sized clothing I wore in the kids section “half” sizes so I wouldn’t feel bad. I remember being made fun of because I “was too fat” to wear l.e.i. And mudd (the cool brands of 2000). I remember not trying out for cheerleading because I thought I was too big. 

I remember being in high school and being disgusted with myself because my arms would rub against my stomach when I sat down in my desk. I remember being called fat behind my back by people in my band class. 

These moments all formulated in my head to convince myself that I wasn’t worth love or acceptance until I lost weight. 

The summer before my senior year in high school I lost some weight. Not enough to be noticeable, but enough for it to unconsciously click in my head how to lose weight. See, I had gotten super busy over the summer and as a result I didn’t snack early as much. I lost weight and I knew it was because I hadn’t been eating normal. 

The way to lose weight was to not eat. At least, in my head it was. 

It didn’t trigger right away, but in February of 2007 my nanny passed away from a heart attack. My life was thrown into chaos over night and I found myself feeling completely out of control. I couldn’t control when someone died. I couldn’t control my emotions. I could control my life. 

But I could control what I put in my mouth. 

From that moment on I ate just enough to get by. I would go to the gym to work off what I had eaten because I wanted to consume as few calories as possible. 

I remember having to hang on to my desk when I got up because I felt so faint from lack of food. I remember keeping otc migraine pills in my car because I always had a headache at the end of the school day. 

Oh, but I was losing weight. People noticed. I noticed. Who cared if I felt like death? I was losing weight. 


Winter 2006 or early 2007 above and spring 2007 below 

The hardest part, looking back, was that I felt so huge to begin with that no matter how little I ate, I still felt like I was failing. I wasn’t losing weight fast enough and it ripped me apart. 

I’d love to say that I woke up one morning and opened my eyes to what I was doing to myself, but I didn’t. I settled into a toxic relationship with food for the next five or so years. I’d feel better and eat, only to be followed by weeks of eating every little. Sometimes I’d be so filled with anxiety that I would binge and eat whatever I could, followed by extreme guilt. I never felt like I could talk about it because the perception of someone with an eating disorder is skeletal and sickly. I still could have been considered “fat” for lack of a better word. 

My first year of work led me to passing out at work twice and my mom used to sit and watch me eat breakfast. Honestly, I don’t know if she actually knew, or what, but I remember being practically forced to eat toast. 


April 2008

I had several bad relationships because I never felt like I deserved better, or could even get better. I’ve had ex’s that I told some things to call me fat behind my back after we broke up. I’ve been told that there are people starving and I’m so selfish that I’m upset because I did eat. 


2009

I never felt good enough, thin enough, pretty enough. I struggled with anxiety, depression, and excessive OCD. I’ve coped with alcohol and self harm. I stayed with a man who lied to me bacause I thought he was the best I would ever have. 


2011


2012


Jamaica 2013

  

2014


2015

Then I woke the eff up. 
I began to live my life and gained the best friend I could ever imagine. Concerts, music, shopping, and fun became my life. Little by little I began to start loving myself. 

I still had feelings of not being good enough, until August 2014. 

My. Life. Changed. 

I know not everyone is religious, but I tell you, the day I left my last ex I felt God. I felt him with me, guiding me. I felt him show me how special I am to Him. I’ve been moved to sobbing tears because of His presence. 
Since 2014 I’ve been on a path of self discovery. I’ve been broken down and lifted up. I’ve learned to see that I am good enough. 

Because isn’t that the root of my problems? I never thought I was goood enough. 

I can’t say I don’t struggle with anxiety or sometimes have a bad self image. I’m human and you are too. Sometimes life with be a daily struggle. Sometimes you may feel you’ll never be good enough. 

You are good enough. 

Mental illness, to be honest, is a lifetime struggle. What helps me may not help you and vice versa. We need to take charge of our lives and find what helps us. It is possible to be happy. It is possible to look in the mirror and see someone you love. It is possible to wake up and be so thankful that you’re alive. 

I’m rooting for you. I’m rooting for us all. 

I don’t know if this made sense, or if it will help anyone, but I feel called to share my story. My past may help someone change their future, and if that’s the case then it’s all worth it. ❤️


October 2016

Going Dairy Free!

Let’s just be blunt here; there’s nothing cute about a dairy intolerance. Gas, bloating, stomach pains, horrible bowl movements. Yeah, nothing pretty. 

I had been experiencing all the above for several months before I ever took to the internet to try and figure out what was wrong. We all know our bodies pretty well, and normally we can figure out when something isn’t right. 

And I knew something wasn’t right or normal. 

So I googled foods that would cause severe bloating and after some research I came across dairy ( or lactose) intolerance. It was the only food that I regularly consumed, so I thought I’d give it a try. 

Y’all, my life changed! Horrible bloating went away, I felt better all over, horrible life interrupting stomach aches went away. I couldn’t help but wonder why it took me so long to figure it out. 

Oh, but then came the hard part, because I love cheese, chocolate, biscuits, gravy ( I’m southern, y’all, and we LOVE our gravy. And in case you didn’t know, gravy is made with sausage grease, flour, milk, salt, and pepper – yeah ), cake, muffins, cookies, doughnuts- the list could go on and on. I’ve actually lost weight because there is such a limited amount of foods I can consume. I’ve given up Pepridge Farm’s goldfish cracker! 😱 And those were my absolute favorite!

Of course, there are times I do consume dairy- and let me tell you, I always regret it. I ate a bunch over the weekend (my sis made a keylime dump cake, so good) and I’ve been paying for it. I felt like crap, my stomach hurts, and I have no energy. 

So why am I writing this? Because roughly 25% of Americans cannot process lactose normally. http://www.pcrm.org/health/diets/vegdiets/what-is-lactose-intolerance

I want to share my new lifestyle with others who may be suffering like I use to. I plan on sharing dairy-free recipes that I learn ( dairy free sweet cornbread coming soon! ). 

Let me know if anyone else struggles as well, I’d love to hear from everyone! 
Until next time!