Nobody told me that when my clothes started to get too big that I’d get frustrated.
I know, I know! How on earth could that be frustrating? It means all your hard work is lying off and you’re seeing physical results!
Yes, and it also means that the clothes that I bought are now things that make me feel frumpy. It means that I don’t feel as confident in my clothes as I did when I was heavier.
Don’t get me wrong, it’s not enough to make me say, “screw this! I’ll just stay this size!”, but it does affect you mentally.
Weightloss is always made out to be this grand thing, but no one wants to talk about the down side – and oh yes, there is a down side! This blog series is going to be about the ups and downs of weight loss. How it makes you feel mentally, physically, and emotionally.
This is my weight loss story.
- My name is Jenni
- I’m almost 28 years old
- I live in a small town
- I’ve been heavy all my life
- I struggled with anxiety and things that go along with it almost all my life
- I’m single
- I’m currently down 15lbs
- My starting weight was 249
- I’m a size 18 pants and XL tops
- I’m on a 2030 calories a day diet
- I also hate the word diet
- I love yoga
- I can touch my toes!
- I’m lactose intolerant
- I love cheese 😩
- I’m 5’5
- I’ve run out of things to write
I don’t know about you, but if I ever mention off handily that I like to practice yoga I get the disbelieving stares.
I know what they’re thinking.
“How can she be flexible at all?”
“She’s too big for that.”
It can be incredibly disheartening to hear those words or see them unspoken in someone’s eyes.
Because it isn’t true.
Your size has nothing to do with your physical abilities. Just because you’re plus size doesn’t mean you can’t touch your toes, just like being thin doesn’t mean you can run a race.
Now, I’m not saying that weight can’t hold you back, because it can. But it doesn’t automatically disqualify you from anything you want to do. There are plenty beautiful plus size ladies that are WAY more flexible than women much smaller.
And of course there are some amazingly flexible thin women, like Kino MacGregor.
(If you’ve never heard of her and like yoga then you totally need to look her up in Instagram – kinoyoga. She’s mind blowing.)
I am no where near her in flexibility or strength, but I try and I enjoy my time on the mat.
I think we sometimes forget or don’t realize what our words can do. By telling someone they’re too big to be doing such and such you may discourage them from doing it.
How is that productive?
We all need to encourage one another. In times like these it says much more about a person when they build someone up, rather than when they tear someone down.
That’s not just in yoga.
That’s in life.